I’ve been neglectful. Neglectful of any readers I may have. Neglectful of any writing I’m trying to do. Neglectful of my house.
I have come to the conclusion that I can do only so many things at one time. This may seem obvious to some, but not to me. I still hold on to this delusion that I can have and do it all. Silly and naïve, I know.
The holidays were magical for the children. They had a wonderful time. We had loads of houseguests. The first relatives were in prior to and through the holidays. The second group came after the holidays. The third group comes tomorrow for New Years. All have had a nice time. We hosted Christmas at our house. It went well.
I swore it would be different this year. I would share more responsibility and workload. I would concede some things and not try to achieve perfection.
I didn’t.
I am exhausted.
I am the only one for whom the holidays might not have been so magical-just tiresome.
We did too much. We hosted too much. We ran around too much.
I want to just be still.
To be bored.
To linger.
Is this possible any more? Are others capable of this and just not me? I’ve read the other mom blog descriptions of their days and everyone seems to have relished in the wonder of it all. Cherished the traditions. I feel that. Less this year than others. But, am I the only one spent?
I’m going to get there next year. It’s my New Year’s resolution. I’m taking back my holiday. Mine. Hopefully, it won’t wreak havoc on anyone else’s idea of what that means.
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I want to be bored too. And ignored. Wouldn't that be lovely?
ReplyDeletePS: I started suffering Christmas Claustrophobia a week before the holiday and it just started phasing out as I took down the tree. You're SO not alone.
I'm spent too...but I get 2 weeks off so I'm actually relaxing a bit. I'm reading a book...catching up on my favorite blogs ;), cooking...playing with the kids. But I feel you. I think it's come with being a woman, unfortunately!!! But maybe you should cut out a couple things next year for your sanity!
ReplyDeleteDude. I'm so with ya. I envy bears...they get to sleep through all this madness.
ReplyDeleteI always find that I am stressed and exhausted during the holidays, but then I look back weeks later and remember how great it was.
ReplyDeleteA nap sounds pretty good right now.
I absolutely agree with you. I have a girlfriend who has to spend all of December visiting family out of state and then spends the big eve and day with just her little family. At first, it made her homesick, but now she cherishes the intimacy and simplicity of the day. I'd like to emulate that. Still working on it....
ReplyDeleteI have seen you comment at some of the same blogs I visit, and finally checked out your blog. I am so glad that I did. I TOTALLY agree with you! I am EXHAUSTED! I just wrote a post on my blog that producing major motion holiday events is exhausting! I am glad to hear you say this because when my daughter got invited to play date this week, I felt guilty for not wanting to go and then bewildered that anyone wouldn't want to take a week off from social obligations after the whirwind of Christmas. Also, love your Fairy Tales post!
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